I never thought I would get married. Yes, as a young girl I can remember imagining what my life would be like. I was a doctor and I was married to a successful businessman. We lived in Napa Valley and we had 2 children. How I came up with that life is beyond me. But somewhere along the way, that fantasy became a distant memory and over time, I couldn’t even see myself getting married. I wanted to get married, but because I was afraid of rejection I began to tell myself that I didn’t really want to get married. I began to believe that I would never marry and that I would be ok. So I became super independent and turned into a workaholic. I bought whatever I wanted whenever I wanted it and still that void was there. Even though I had lie to myself and tried to trick myself into thinking that I didn’t want to get married, my heart knew differently.
Marrying Trevor was the best day of my life. When we got married we didn’t have the time to do a honeymoon. We said that “someday” when we had the time and the resources we would go.
Fast forward 3.5 years later.
January 2017 was a difficult month for us. We embarked on our first round of IUI at our fertility clinic. January was also the month that the company I am apart of on the side announced our incentive trip; 5 days all-inclusive trip at the Hard Rock Resort in Punta Cana. I can remember thinking how nice that would be, but my focus was on having a baby. I was 1000% sure that this IUI would take and I would be due in October when the trip was set for. On January 20th we found out that the IUI was unsuccessful and we were heart broken. I didn’t want to do anything. After about a week, I decided that we were going to use this Punta Cana incentive trip as our honeymoon. I had no idea how it was going to happen and more times than not, I doubted it. I cannot even begin to describe the overwhelming joy when I got the email in June saying that I had EARNED this trip! We were finally going on our honeymoon!
Punta Cana was everything we needed, at the moment we needed it the most. Paradise was better than my expectations and we came back feeling rejuvenated, inspired and ready to get home and get back to work.
This trip proved to me that I can do whatever I set my mind to do. The odds were stacked against me and I persevered. I finally caught of glimpse of what so many people have told me about myself. I really am capable of making my wildest dreams come true.
Four years later, and our Honeymoon was absolutely perfect. I am so incredibly grateful for this once in a lifetime opportunity.